still waiting

An old friend found the finished video I was watching on her itouch the other day. Thought I’d share it with you all.

Patience.

Dedication.

Enduring faith.

Unstoppable hope.

Strength.

Determination.

Perseverance.

Grace.

An advocate.

Courageous.

Devoted.

Compassionate.

Conviction.

Generosity.

Committed.

Tenacious.

Inspirational.

Extraordinary.

THAT is my wife.

I’m having a rough go of it today.

The Wednesday after this happened, I prayed for the strength of Samson, the wisdom of Solomon, and the courage of Daniel. If I get a couple of others in there, I’ll be Shazam.

So, this morning, I woke up needing some encouragement. I was looking for a particular post Anissa did about me. I just spent the past 20 minutes or so scrolling around her website and can’t find the one I’m looking for, but what I did find was laughter. It was like scrolling through a scrapbook, and I could hear those words coming out of her mouth.

Yesterday they turned the breathing machine down to its lowest setting. A good sign. For about 10 hours, she was essentially breathing on her own, and was just exhausted at the end of it. There were some moments of encouragement. I’m 100% positive she saw us and was trying to communicate with us. She kept her eyes open for a good 2 hours. We THINK that’s because she was uncomfortable and unable to sleep. We gave her some meds for that. I was hoping for fireworks. I told her that we were going to get up. 1-2-3, get up. She tried. Lifted her head, arched her back and pushed with all her might.

Not yet. Not even close, but the encouraging thing is she’s trying.

Today, I’m making videos of the kids to take up. They want to help. Peyton’s having the toughest time these days. She misses her mom. She used to sneak her way into our bed and crawl in between us. As a parent, you sometimes turn a blind eye to things…this was one of ours. Last night, I got to hold onto Peyton for most of the night. Not as good as her mommy, but it got us through.

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